i'm the slime coming out of your tv set

i don't think i'd ever wear this anywhere, apart from to school. i was in a pink mood
well my last a-level exam is today, wish me luck! it's so humid today, but i think it's breezy too - the weather is the bane of my british existence sometimes X

p.s i couldn't face the world in the pink boots on such a humid day, see grey shoes

some guys just can't hold their arsenic

my webcam is just so rubbish
haha look how big my head looks! don't worry, i'm just leaning forwards
i'm begging alex wang's fall collection, though with not much success
i just cut the arms off a primark 'leather' jacket, and the legs off some opaque tights. shorts peackocks, espadrilles peacocks, grey vest an old one of my mum's, black long sleeved t-shirt second hand

i was pleasantly surprised to see Becky and Rose walking to chez moi this afternoon (not just because it was from behind...)
anyway i went for a quick drink in my local with those wonderful girls, and some st dunstans peeps. most of them had to leave, but i had a chat with hannah who lingered on - was so nice to see her after all this time. we asked Rose, who's now an elderly nineteen, all our uni queries

i need to learn how to roll cigarettes, i want to save money

today i had my second to last exam - english literature, the second paper
i think it went quite well, but we'll see
i really enjoyed it, sadly enough. i like losing myself in the unseen poetry, were pretty much anything your interested in is vaguely relevant

i hope everyone's week has gone well, TGI Friday tomorrow, TBH! ABBREVIATIONS!!!111

xxx

listening to: the "Chicago" soundtrack (and singing to it loudly)
want: some books on art history

Now you say you're lonely, you cry the whole night through. Well, you can cry me a river

I cried a river over you"
tired of feeling used
and feeling like i need other people's friendship and love to prove my worth


i feel like a caged animal
transition dreams, the night before last it was from a shanty town to new york
last night it was all about losing keys in a hotel of never ending rooms
change is coming, and i can't wait for a new start

no pictures because i've jsut been wearing dressing gowns or pyjamas whilst rotting indoors. i'll post something tomorrow before my exam


did anyone see the first of the three part series "Occupation"? it was on BBC one (i think,) last night at 9pm. it's fantastically produced, shot, and acted. it's about army occupation, and that of mercenaries, in basra, iraq. i thought the relationship between the soldier, James Nesbitt's character, and the civilian doctor was a nice touch, but maybe a slightly clichéd diversion from the rest of the weighty subject matter. however, it works. i'm still not sure how well it will live up to the reviews.



listening to: Shirley Bassey, Cher
when i was younger i sang lots of Bassey songs, i love that she's just as much a performer as a singer, you can even hear it in her voice
xxx

rodent patrol

hello

i really need these exams to finish so i don't have as much of an opportunity to waste time. i haven't been revising today, i just carried my books around the house with me as a reminder of what i was supposed to be doing.

my parent's are having some family friends over this evening. many people who know me might not believe how ridiculously shy i can be, but i get so nervous before leaving the house, before people come to visit, and often even in front of my own family, but not my parents. i'll try my best to be jovial, but i think i'll escape upstairs with the pretence of revision between courses

i was a little disheartened that my dad didn't ask me to help with the cooking today. also he criticised me for being materialistic when i said i wanted a turban haha! i suppose i am fairly materialistic in a sense, but i hope i'm not shallow. i like clothes but i'm not particularly 'fashion', and there's nothing wrong with liking nice things either. however, i take his point, and i will make sure i focus on other things more once i am free from the house. in two weeks i'm going to be very busy, i hope i can rise to the challenge (that is the challenge of maintaining un-natural energy levels - pro plus 'lol'?)

on another note, i think i would quite like a camera, not just for this silly blog and the quality of webcam photos, but so i can document memories of the summer etc. the lumix looks really nice, but to be honest it's probably out of my price range.

anyway, on the topic of shallow things...


espadrilles and strapless top from peacocks (!!), chinos from asos, white belt second hand, bracelet was my aunty's when she was younger. i look like such a ratface ERGH. also, the outfit's not all that, but it's quite good for me on a sunday


xxx

hit that perfect hit that perfect

green scarf from granny, miscellaneous black clothes, accesorised with an Anya




sorry i'm a little late with this, friday was really boozy, but very lovely.
i saw loads of my closest friends in the local pub, and got suitably drunk

i'm mega tired, so i'm going to be rubbish and go to bed, no outfit post for today xxx


listening to: Bronski Beat
reading: Lonely Planet Magazine

what it means for me to be with you alone

thursday 11th

yesterday's exam didn't go as well as i had hoped, and i REALLY want an A in English :( hopefully i did better than i thought. i have media and theatre studies today, it's going to be a lonnnng day, but there's a light at the end of the tunnel... i'm really excited about travelling around europe in a few weeks with one of my best friends, Claire. however, i want to be sure that i've done the best i can do in these terrifying examinations that 'mould' the future AHHH


black doc martins, black slouchy dress from peacocks, ring and necklace belonged to my mum and aunty when they were little, black jacket from debenhams agesss ago




listening to: Red Hot Chili Peppers!!! when i was more ickle they were my favourite band, they still hold the key to my tiny bleak heart HA


have a good day y'all, don't get rained on x

"it is the green-eyed monster, which doth mock the meat it feeds on"

wednesday 10th

i have my first exam this afternoon, so i thought i'd dress in something new to cheer myself up. i'm terrified, but it'll be nice to have it out of the way, as i've been cruisin' around the house for a while. i'm hoping to get in to my element and really enjoy the paper, but if not... NO i' m going to keep optimistic, otherwise it may be a shambles

(excuse my face)

the 'dress' is a miss selfridge skirt i got from the local charity box, the jeggings are urban outfitters, the earring's accessorize, 'belt' from the leather jacket, faux leather jacket from primark, and steve madden shoes i got in a swap on bigwardrobe.com. i'm going to freeze so i'll be chucking on a black jumper or cardie, and wheeling along the old brolly too

i don't take the tube into london, but it'll probably effect my journey, and definately effect the journey of many fellow a-levelers. i heard that the strike is over some of the tube operaters/drivers(?) being sacked because they kept putting passengers IN DANGER. opening the tube doors on the wrong side and things ha! what do you think of the union leaders of public transport? i feel that they are important, but as people often irrational


keep safe goiz! x

listening to: Take Five by Dave Brubeck
reading: last minute online revision notes!

exam panic

tuesday 9th

today i've been indoors revising, as i have for the past few weeks, excluding the much anticipated friday nights. tomorrow i have my first exam, which is one of the english literature papers, on Othello and The Merchant's Tale

i've been slobbing around the house, so here is a very unattractive picture of me in a cardigan of my grandma's, maroon tights, and an old stripy t-shirt
(note i'm also wearing my glasses or 'gig-lamps')



i fell asleep last night with a huge torch (ha) and The Oxford Book of English Verse, which i've been meaning to flick through for a while. perhaps it'll inspire me to develop my uninspiring writing. I am constantly waking up at night, fumbling around for something to write with, and waking up disappointed. and tired.

does anyone reading this wear contact lenses? i'm considering a laser-eye operation

wishlist: latex stockings, latex opera gloves, tassled biker jacket
listening to: Orange Juice - Simply Thrilled Honey
reading: Bleak House - Charles Dickens

If I don't know how to be thankful enough for the clusters of white blossom

i've decided to start this blog in addition to it's other, vaguer sister (www.millyismelting.blogspot.com)

i was talking with my friend Simone this weekend, and decided i would go ahead and do a blog of 'outfits'. however, i'm going to write with them too, and i will post what i've really been wearing, rather than something to take a photo in, then never wear outdoors. i don't want it to be pretencious, but rather a visual accompliment to an online diary of sorts. i've called it 'The Heart is a Lonely Hunter', as that's a novel I enjoyed by Carson McCullers

any thoughts?